Thursday, October 27, 2011

Coming to the end..

This weekend the proud parents to these two babies I have spent so much time with will be arriving in Minnesota and soon after the baby beans will follow.

I have so many emotions running through my body and mind these past few weeks. I will first say that I am not worried about "giving them away" because again I'm not. They aren't mine. They never have been. I am sad to know this journey that I (we) started so long ago will be done. I will no longer be needed for their family. My "job" is done. With that being said, I feel even more strong about the fact that my other "job" my family, my kids will have me back 100%. That they won't need to share me any longer.

This past year I have grown in so many ways and I'm not just talking in the belly size. I have grown in my photography business and learning to become more professional and setting goals for myself within the industry. As a wife I've learned to show my husband how much I care for him and depend on him by just taking the time to sit and talk, to make sure we still have the "just us" time. As a mother I have learned that this is the most important job I will ever have and taking that time to read a good book with your kids before bed makes you a better parent. My friendships this past year have been a little more of a challenge. I have had the opportunity to meet some of the most amazing women thanks to surrogacy. The fact that I've only met a few face to face is crazy to me when I think some of these women are some of my closest friends I have today.

As my husband and I were cleaning the house I came across the 5 page profile of the guys that I received while in CA. I had to sit down and read it. It brought back so many emotions. I remember reading it like a dozen times on the flight back home with my husband, first thoughts honestly were -
1)Norway! that's so far away..
2)Those are some good lookin guys!
3)They seem so happy and look like they need to be dads;)

I couldn't imagine doing this for any other couple then G and S. The friendship, the trust, the connection between us all has made this as successful as it is today. They have done such an amazing job being a part of every little thing. I'm sure I could have had a couple here in the same state and not felt as close as I have with these two men.

So knowing there is just a short month left of all of this, I have no sad tears, no regrets. I have excitement, love and just all smiles to know that this was a perfect surrogacy journey.

I went into Surrogacy wanting to help a couple have a family but also to help me become a stronger person and without a doubt I can say I have. I will never be the same person I was before I signed up for this.


  1. It's almost time, Love. I am so very proud of you. xo

  2. Wow... thank you for this post. I agree with Andrea, I am so proud of you.

  3. Love to you..You are so close now...You are amazing to be nearly 36 weeks..Amazing.

  4. Beautiful post! Congrats on all you have achieved and will achieve with this journey. It's an amazing feeling knowing that you've helped make a family.

  5. Great words!! Surrogacy is an amazing thing and changes so much! I too felt the same way and feel as though it made me a better wife, mother, and overall better person. Good luck to you in the remaining month!!

  6. Great post! You've done an amazing job and I agree as well; surrogacy certainly opens your eyes to realizing the important things in life and helps make you into a better person. Almost time! Good luck, girlie!

  7. Just want you to know how proud I am of you and how very much I love you!!

    Aunt Vic

  8. Amy you are a beautiful woman inside and out. Through your posts here and on fb you have provided us a window into the world of surrogacy and we have witnessed parts of your journey. There are so many words to describe you: wife, mother, passionate, caring, daughter, socially aware, photographer, sister, niece, cool, dedicated, the list goes on. Physically there will be an ending to this part of the journey but soon there will be a beginning of a new family thanks to you. Enjoy the rest of the ride . . .